"I push people" -Ms. Norbury, Mean Girls
Possibly the greatest movie to be produced in 2007...well tis true people, I do push people...lately, I've been pushing myself. Pushing myself to be the best that I can. School-wise, family-wise, religion-wise, and social-wise. That's a lot of wisdom for one person. Well, my social life feels like it's going to crumble right in front of me, soon. The two guys I've been "seeing" are both going..well, good I guess. Smooth sailing. Except...I'm with both of them--err "with" both of them? So because nobody uses damn labels anymore, it's technically okay that I'm seeing both of them. So am I a two-timer? I guess, technically I'm not...but to any reasonable person (thank you, T.L. business 101) I'm being a bad person, or a cheater.
The sad thing is...my heart definitely knows which guy I really want to be with. But time, location and probably God are all telling me differently. I now feel, or have been feeling, pushed to go towards the other option, which is also a great great option, he's just not the one I want to be with right now. And the sadder (it's a word to me, alright) thing is that no matter how badly two people want to be with each other, sometimes they're just not meant to be. :( We can try all we want, pretend all we want, but it just won't work. Guess that's just how things go. Blows.
Only me. All my life I go through life boyfriend-less, guys not having any interest in me (I can't blame them, I was a pretty unfortunate looking kid) and now God has blessed me with two great guys..at the same time..oy..
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